"If your everyday life seems poor, don't blame it; blame yourself" ~ Rainer Maria Rilke
After frying my brain over-thinking things the last few days, I've realized that I'm not satisfied with my current place in life. I always thought that as long as I found a good wife and had some kids, my job wouldn't matter to me as long as I could get by. But after some heavy self reflection I realized I wanted to do something I was passionate about just as much as having a family. I want to be doing something I love rather than working at a place where I count every second I have left before I can finally go home. The problem is, I haven't done anything to make my dream a reality.
I was so paralyzed by a fear of failure that I let myself become my own worst enemy. It hadn't occurred to me that while not trying meant I couldn't fail at anything, it also meant I would never succeed in anything. So you know what? I wanna try. Even if I fail a thousand times, even if I don't end up doing what I want, at least I can say I tried. Because any move in the right direction is better than living a bland life.
So I want you to do something for me. Ask yourself if your happy. Ask yourself if you're satisfied with where your life is. Are you doing what you love, or have you settle for complacency? The unexamined life is not worth living, so I must beg you to question yourself and your life. Don't settle for normal. Don't let your life filter through your fingers while you do nothing. Ask yourself if you are happy, and if the answer is no, then do something about it.