So That's It? You Just Gonna Stop?
So its been a while since i posted... And so i guess we should get right to it then. It this blog we will check up on the price of failure. To fail at something, failing to do something, to be a failure, what ever the case, the human reaction is usually the same. We will go into how it impacts us emotionally and physically. So lets get into my fail and how I felt, how i reacted and how i proceeded. #vVvCommunity Episode 3... what an episode. I had high hopes for it. i felt confident, i was going to try and not drag topics on and not repeat myself. I had some fun things to show...And i felt pretty satisfied with how it went...Up until the closing song... when i realized my microphone had been muted the hole time...
( I don't need a description for this pic, it says it all. )
Emotionally - After something a lot of things go through your head, most of which are bad. And Again this goes for everyone. ( Maybe not Buddhist monks ) If you make a huge mistake in a Starcraft 2 match, you accidentally click your "back" mouse micro button while writing a blog and lose it all ( done this a couple of times ) ANGER! ( the old msn :@ emoticon ) You hate yourself for what you did, So in my case of doing a complete episode with 0 audio for viewers = self hatred. So i Immediately deleted the VOD, and closed everything and sank into my bed.
After the anger wears off, your left with self pity and sadness. Because you messed up and you think the world should stop for you... and even get mad that people don't stop there world for you... I know it must have been some SC2 Match... But in this process you can make 2 moves. Pull out of it, Harder, Better, Faster, and Stronger... Or lose all motivation and sink farther into your bed.
Now with this blog coming 2 weeks afterwards. I bet you can guess which one i chose... BUT give me some credit. i did attempt to jump back on the horse. I started this blog a week ago. I knew i had to get myself out of this mood. So i started writing it. And HATED IT!! Every word i wrote i wanted to vomit! So i deleted it and sank into my bed. I wasn't ready. so i took an extra week, played some games. chilled out, Let myself completely relax. From there you have another 2 options. Re-think, Or Do. You can re-go over how you handle things, your process and ideas, or you can continue where you left off. At first I chose re-think. But through this process i remembered that the Pre-Season of the show is made specifically for trial and error. So I left it where it was and I'm continuing... With a couple new things in Mind.
This weeks episode will be on Wednesday at around 8 or 9 Est, Featured on it will be the game of the week, The Alive man Contest, VGHS, F2P Games, And Much More, So stay tuned for more blogs, more episodes, contests, articles, and prizes.