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Fantasy LCS: Must Plays, Sleepers, Busts for NA Week Nine/Day One
The best matchup's of the day are C9 vs. TDK, TSM vs. NME, and TL vs. T8.
Must Play: Quas (TL) ($1312) vs. T8: He's the most expensive top laner on a day when it's going to be hard to fit all the top options in, but he probably has the most upside.
Sleeper: Balls (C9) ($1067) vs. TDK: C9 have been playing much better sicne Hai rejoined and I think they will beat TDK. Balls is a nice cheap option with good upside.
Bust: ZionSpartan (CLG) ($1198) vs. DIG: I'm avoiding this game entirely as CLG players are expensive and I have no clue how to predict DIG's games.
Must Play: Santorin (TSM) ($1325) vs. NME: Steady jungler in a game TSM should win.
Sleeper: Hai (C9) ($1072) vs. TDK: Hai is dirt cheap in a game I think C9 will win. Even though he hasn't been jungling long it's clear that his shotcalling had been missed.
Bust: Rush (TiP) ($1182) vs. GRV: I think Rush will try too hard to make up for the loss of XiaoWeiXiao and that'll cause some sloppy play. Not worth the risk for his price.
Must Play: Bjergsen (TSM) ($1854) vs. NME: He's really expensive but in this match up he's definitely worth it. Expect a huge game for Bjergerking.
Sleeper: Keane (GRV) ($1246) vs. TiP: I expect GRV to bounce back and win this game and Keane will be laning against Gate who was originally listed as the incoming Support. He's also cheaper than Gate and should provide nice upside.
Bust: Gate (TiP) ($1277) vs. GRV: He's a support main playing in his first game of the LCS and he's also the fourth most expensive mid laner. Stay away.
Must Play: Piglet (TL) ($1563) vs. Team8: Good match up and he's been playing very well. It's really hard to fit him into a lineup with the other expensive must plays unless you punt however.
Sleeper: Sneaky (C9) ($1254) vs. TDK: Another cheap C9 option in a game I expect them to win.
Bust: Doublelift (CLG) ($1610) vs. DIG: He's just too expensive for me to use in such a random game. I never know what is going to happen with DIG.
Must Play: Lustboy (TSM) ($1180) vs. NME: He's expensive but probably will put up the most points of any support this week.
Sleeper: LemonNation (C9) ($980) vs. TDK: Cheaper option in a game C9 should win.
Bust: Aphromoo (CLG) ($1148) vs. DIG: Like his teammates he's too expensive for me to want to use in a game that could go either way.
Here's my lineup for Week Nine Day One in the NALCS:
Top: Quas (TL) ($1312)
Jungle: Santorin (TSM) ($1325)
Mid: Bjergsen (TSM) ($1854)
ADC: Sneaky (C9) ($1254)
Sup: LemonNation (C9) ($980)
Flex One: Dyrus (TSM) ($1195)
Flex Two: Hai (C9) ($1072)
Flex Three: Ninja (TDK) ($996)
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With Jerry returning to vVv to run things again, my time as President of vVv has come to a close. I wanted to take some time to reflect on how things went. Primarily I feel like I failed vVv in a lot of ways. The ADL stagnated due to my mismanagement and failure to keep people pushing toward excellence. The CoD division was on life support for way too long. As a whole I didn't effectively execute on my vision for making vVv Gaming an awesome place for competitive gamers.
Primarily there were certain personal things holding me back from executing on my vision. The main two were my self-awareness with how I handled my working relationships and my inability to focus. I looked for all kinds of ways to increase my productivity, reading up on things like prioritizing, focusing on your mission, having a clear idea of what it is that you want to accomplish, but none of that addressed the core problem: I was just getting distracted by everything and unable to focus when it came time to do the big, important work. I wasn't lacking a strategy, I was lacking discipline. With my working relationships, I was acting like a complete ass to people without even realizing it. I didn't take the time to re-read what I was writing, or think about how I was coming across to people, and the ways I tried to approach people to "help" them made me come across as a bureaucratic authority who's only help was to tell people "no" or "do things my way". Obviously these two flaws are going to prevent anyone from being a good, let alone great leader.
Thankfully Jerry was able to help me regain my focus and also help me raise my self awareness within just two weeks of returning. In the past two weeks I've gotten more accomplished, felt better about myself and my future, and improved the way I handle my relationships more than any time in the past 9 years. I've even started looking at some difficult problems I've been facing personally and just by asking myself "What would Jerry tell me?" I can usually figure out the best way to proceed and handle things.
So now I just need to return to my vision and remember why it's so compelling for me. As a kid I had to go through some real difficulty trying to figure out how to be gay and in love with someone who would never return that feeling. It's deeply important to me that no one should have to go through life facing difficult challenges without feeling like there is someone there who can help them. I think that within the larger gaming community there are endless opportunities to fulfill that mission. Don't like the way you look? Cosplay as your favorite game character. Bullied at school? Go online and find people who love you just because you share a passion for the same game as they do. Giving up on your dreams? Volunteer your time doing amazing things for the larger gaming community and develop marketable skills to work in or outside of the gaming industry.
There is so much good that we can do together, and I am passionate about making the world a better place than the one I had to grow up in. I sometimes wonder how many people there were in the world when I was growing up who gave up on their dreams to live a normal life. How many hours spent watching TV that could have been spent changing peoples' minds about homosexuality? How many hours spent in closeted sex clubs or on seedy hookups that could have been spent coming out and leading the LBGT awareness movement? How many desperate, needy relationships that distracted people from opening places where LGBT youth could come for help? Not that no one should watch TV, or people should never hookup, or that people shouldn't find love, but what was the real cost to the world when this becomes the focus of a life instead of a way to enhance it? How many suicides could have been prevented? How much bullying could have been stopped?
And it's not just LGBT who have difficult challenges. Everyone has a closet. How many people feel like they have no one to turn to for help when the burden of hiding inside of it becomes overwhelming? How much of a better world could we create for all of humanity if we just took the time to focus on each other? I aspire to be as good as Jerry at finding, identifying, and communicating what people need in order to go from struggling to successful. And I look forward to creating an awesome community for all competitive gamers here over the next few months, and wherever life takes me I will continue on this mission for the rest of my life. If you feel the same way then come join me and let's make this awesome together.
IEM San Jose: Day Two Fantasy Advice
Welcome back in. Yesterday didn't go quite as I expected. I got things half right with CLG beating UoL, but TSM's new roster did work against LGD with a nice 2-0. LGD looked bad, they should've probably won game two, but regardless both games put up some decent fantasy numbers for us, even being wrong about LGD. The biggest problem I had was that I used Flame on DraftKings and he only played one game. Going forward, I think it may be wise to stay away from using players who could be subbed out. I think ORG will beat TSM closely while JAG will beat CLG to make an Origen vs. Jin Air Final. I'm going to pick Origen to win the whole thing, but I'm somewhat thinking whoever wins the TSM/OG Match Up will take home the title at IEM San Jose.
Here's a look at today's players:
I'm gonna try to stay away from using any player who may be subbed out on Draft Kings today.
Here's my lineups:
Top: sOAZ (OG) ($1272)
Jungle: Xmithie (CLG) ($1120)
Mid: Bjergsen (TSM) ($1437)
ADC: Niels (OG) ($1427) - Shotcaller
Sup: Mithy (OG) ($976)
Flex One: Doublelift (TSM) ($1594)
Flex Two: Chei (JaG) ($941)
Flex Three: Trace (JaG) ($1233)
I want Niels and Doublelift in every lineup I make today. If today is like yesterday, Doublelift is the main carry of TSM at the moment and even if they lose he will put up big numbers much like he did in CLG. That doesn't mean Bjergsen is a bad option especially when he's cheaper than others. He can still get plenty of kills and assists. I'm going cheap at jungle and support, but pairing Mithy with Niels seems like a good shout. Niels was the standout carry for OG at Worlds.
Top: sOAZ (OG) ($7600)
Jungle: Amazing (OG) ($7400)
Mid: PowerOfEvil (OG) ($8000)
ADC: Niels (OG) ($8400)
Sup: Aphromoo ($7000)
Flex: Doubelift (TSM) ($8200)
Team: TSM ($3400)
Going cheap again at support and team to pay up for a mainly OG lineup. Like I said above I think OG will win this tournament so an OG stack here makes the most sense to me.
Top: sOAZ (OG) ($6500)
Jungle: Amazing (OG) ($6000)
Mid: Bjergsen (TSM) ($6600)
ADC: Niels (OG) ($7700)
Sup: kaSing (TSM) ($5100)
Flex One: Doublelift (TSM) ($6900)
Flex Two: Kuzan (JaG) ($7100)
Team: CLG ($4000)
Draftkings is only using the semi-finals for their contests so you don't have to worry as much about getting players from the teams expected to make the finals. Doublelift is a much use as he's the cheapest ADC and should out perform his price. I'm using the cheapest team (CLG) and cheapest support (kaSing) to pay up for players like Niels. For some reason TSM is not available to pick in your team spot.
Good luck on day two!
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Have you ever had met a person in life who shared all of your interests? Thought the way you do?
The Moriarty to your Sherlock - Sometimes the other way around? Well, my brother, Chris, was and
is that to me. There is nothing in this world that gets my blood flowing like the thrill of a challenge,
a competition, or pursuit of perfection.
The earliest memory I have is playing Mortal Kombat Ultimate. My brother was a beast at
Nightwolf and Sindel. God, I couldn't stand that fucker and his axe combo; if you know the game,
it started with a low kick... followed by an annihilation of your manhood (insert rage). Anyways,
we'd play the game with large health pools so that the matches lasted for 7-10 minutes. We figured
this would balance out the flukes and allow the better player to always win. It was always him.
I would practice hours upon hours, character after character, just to find a way to beat his
Nightwolf. I would go so far as to play into the AM's while everyone was asleep on a school night.
Finally, a miracle happened. Jesus took the wheel, or in this case, control of the controller leading
me to accidentally pick Noob Sabot in the select screen. Well, it turns out the timing of Sabots
combos completely and utterly destroy Nightwolf. I ended up figuring out something called an
"infinite combo" in the fighter genre, like Marvel vs Capcom. I was unbeatable. This led to my
brother demanding the hero be banned from play, lol.
Fast forward a few years, and the best game of all time had been created; Starcraft: Brood War.
Our second greatest rivalry. I can still remember the day my brother came home with a disc of this
game. For all you youngins out there, we had to have cd-rom discs of the game to play it. This is
back when windows 95 was the most up to date operating system. Anyways, our buddy Jeremy
from down the street was all about this game. We installed, opened the game, picked protoss,
and entered a world that would define our childhood. Even to this day, I find myself searching
youtube for the game's music, old tournaments, and everything GomTV. The game was flawless.
Alright, enough gushing about Starcraft, down to the nitty gritty. Like all games, top tier players
separate themselves from the community and create their own secret hideout. In Starcraft, this
was Clan x17. To put this place in perspective; think of the biggest crush you've ever had. Now
imagine her surrounded by a multitude of bouncers, and around these bouncers are other nerds
ust like yourself. Just like the world of dating, clan x17 is the girl you want to bang, and the
amount of horny teenagers trying to get in her circle represents the starcraft community.
This is where my brother played.
Having only 1 computer growing up, I spent a great deal of time watching my brother in a chair
right beside him, learning from his every move. There was this one game I remember vividly,
the game he played against Testie. This guy was one of the top terran players in North America
at the time, a man ahead of his time in terms of skill. Testie decided to do a tank push/contain
on my brother's protoss base very early in the game. However, my brother had created a build
rushing zealot speed and shuttles in order to drop on top of the tanks, nullifying the terran
advantage. The game was a 30 minute slugfest of epic proportion. The result: my brother was victorious.
Throughout the next few years, he would play against the top canadian protoss Smuft- from
time to time, as well as many other Clan x17 members. I’m not sure of all the opponents
anymore, but I am certain he had to of run into Artosis, Tasteless and Day9 at one point or another.
As for myself, I played in x17 as well. My defining moment came before my brother’s success
in the game. One late night, my brother went over to our friend’s house in order to play me
1v1 online. We played for hours upon hours into the AM’s, digging deeper into competitive
nature with each passing game. And so the moment came where I defeated him in 3 straight
games, convincingly. My brother didn’t even type a word as his connection disappeared from
the LAN screen. I was beside myself because I had never truly beaten him on even terms
before. But… he crushed me in a harmful way. The following day he told me this, “I was just
playing around you know? I’m still better than you.” As a young, 12 year old boy, I accepted
my older brother’s statement and quit Starcraft for good.
There are times in my gaming career where I wonder, "what might have been if I had done 'x'?"
Well, this is one of them.
Worlds 2015: Semi-Final Advice
Here are the Semi-Final Odds:
FNATIC and SKT are the favorites to head to the World Finals. I would recommend fading ORG as SKT have looked near unstoppable. KOO provides some interesting salary relief plays.
Here's a list of all the players left in the tournament:
Top: Marin (SKT) ($1261)
Jungle: Hojin (KOO) ($1175)
Mid: Faker (SKT) ($1420)
ADC: Bang (SKT) ($1514)
Sup: GOrilla (KOO) ($994)
Flex One: Huni (FNC) ($1252)
Flex Two: YellowStar (FNC) ($1021)
Flex Three: Febiven (FNC) ($1358)
The first thing to note is that Vulcun is combining the Semi-Final and Final rounds into their contests this week. With that in mind you need to select mostly players who are going to make it to the finals so you get two weeks worth of points. For me, it was SKT and FNC so I took the limit of three per team from each. The other two spots I gave to KOO Tigers as I think they have a better chance to make the finals than Origen.
Top: Marin (SKT) ($8600)
Jungle: Hojin (KOO) ($7100)
Mid: Febiven (FNC) ($7800)
ADC: Bang (SKT) ($8800)
Sup: Gorilla (KOO) ($6900)
Flex; Yellowstar (FNC) ($7100)
Team: FNATIC ($3700)
Top: Marin (SKT) ($7500)
Jungle: Hojin (KOO) ($5600)
Mid: Febiven (FNC) ($7400)
ADC: Bang (SKT) ($8700)
Sup: Mithy (ORG) ($4100)
Flex; Huni (FNC) ($6700)
Flex; Gorilla (KOO) ($5400)
Team: FNATIC ($4500)
This weekend marks the next stage in the 2015 Road to BlizzCon Heroes of the Storm World Championship. China already punched in their two tickets to BlizzCon for eStar Gaming and Team YL, it’s now time to focus on the Americas Championship. The 2015 Americas Championship is being held September 19-20 in Las Vegas, Nevada at the Las Vegas Convention Center. Teams from all over North America, Latin America, Southeast Asia, and Australia & New Zealand will come together to battle it out in the Nexus for top glory and a trip to BlizzCon.
The group stage of the tournament is different than most group stages out there. According to Reddit User eSportsMatt (Blizzard eSports Coordinator) the group stage can be considered “a double elimination bracket with a twist”. Reddit user TheBrillo made a chart that gives a nice breakdown here:
In Group A, the first matches will consist of Tempo Storm vs Murloc Geniuses and Immunity vs Cloud 9. The winner of each match will move onto the “Winner’s Finals” of Group A and the losers go to the “Elimination Game” with the loser exiting the tournament. The winner of “Winner’s Finals” moves onto one side of the playoff bracket, loser drops to the “Lower Finals” where they will face the winner of the “Elimination Game” with the loser taking their exit. Winner of the “Lower Finals” moves onto the complete other side of the playoff bracket from their group-mate.
The same format takes place in Group B with the first matches taking place after the Group A elimination game. The matchups for Group B are Relics vs COGnitive and Furious Gaming vs Complexity. Saturday ends with both Group A and Group B Winner’s Finals taking place. Sunday begins with both group’s Lower Finals, with the Grand Final taking place the same day. The tournament will be a Best of 3 format throughout with the exception of the Grand Finals which will be a Best of 5.
Winner takes home a share of the $100,000 USD prize purse; $40,000 to first place, $24,000 to second place, and 3rd-4th taking home $12,000 each. Along with the prize money the top two teams will get their tickets punched to BlizzCon on November 6-7th. Action starts Saturday, 10am Pacific Time on the official Blizzard Heroes of the Storm Twitch Channel (link).
Let's meet the teams competing this weekend, starting with Group A.
Tempo Storm (North America)
Dreadnaught - Support (Captain)
Arthelon - Carry
So1dier - Tank
Kaeyoh - Carry
Zuna - Flex
Tempo Storm are the unofficial powerhouse of the North America region. They qualified for the HWC Americas Championship back in June with their first place finish but then went on to finish first in the next two opens in July and August as well. As a matter of fact in the last 10 majors/minors Tempo Storm has gone on to place first in 8 of them and only dropped to 2nd place for the ones they didn't place first, pretty impressive stuff. You can thank the "star-studded" roster that Tempo Storm has managed to gather over the course of the young esports' life. Some of you may remember Arthelon as a solo queue monster in League of Legends. Some of the older players might remember him from a time before LCS when he played on teams like Monomaniac Esports and Meat Playground. Although Arthelon's League career did not amount to much, he is not unfamiliar with the idea of professionalism that is needed in an infant esport like Heroes of the Storm.
As for more star-power a lot of people will look at Zuna and ask "Hey, is that the guy from...." yes, it is. Zuna, former AD Carry of team Vulcan and XDG is no stranger either when it comes to esports. Playing on Vulcan, a team who finished 3rd in both the 2013 League of Legends LCS Spring and Summer splits, and later on XDG before the team was ultimately relegated only to never return. Despite this, Zuna showed that he can be a big time player in big time situations. Tempo Storm's victorious run can be credited to him. After Zuna joined the team on May 21st, Tempo Storm began their NA domination.
It isn’t all about the star power though. Dreadnaught, captain of the team, has shown a top notch Pick/Ban phase in almost all of their matchups. So1dier and Kaeyoh are also extremely talented and this team as a whole seems to be the favorite going into this weekend’s tournament.
Cloud 9 (North America)
DunkTrain – Support (Captain)
KingCaffeine – Tank
iDream – Carry
K1pro – Flex
Fan – Carry
Cloud 9 is another North American power that has shown some consistency in their lifetime. Although, usually taking 2nd place while Tempo Storm takes first, they are still a force to be reckoned with. Consisting of the roster formerly known as Cloud 9 Maelstrom, who after qualifying in July, dissolved Cloud 9 Vortex and unified under the singular Cloud 9 banner.
Boasting a roster of Heroes veterans, they are no strangers to the tournament scene as well. After placing first in last year’s BlizzCon exhibition tournament, Cloud 9 had a lot to replace after the departure of Zuna, Jintae, and Kenma. On July 30th, Cloud 9 settled on the roster (shown above) and has shown promise since. After the team changes, Cloud 9 has been a consistent top 3 threat in North America, winning the latest Heroes Major League hosted by ESL.
With this young and promising roster, Cloud 9 is looking to secure one of the two spots for BlizzCon in hopes of accomplishing their championship dreams.
Murloc Geniuses (North America)
Faye – Carry
CauthonLuck – Carry
MadTiimmy – Support (Captain)
Equinox – Flex
Fury - Tank
Formerly of the team Evil Geniuses in the 2014 BlizzCon Heroes of the Storm show match, MG has gone through a lot of changes since April 1st. Coined “The Challengers” by Josh Bury of theScore eSports (http://www.thescoreesports.com/news/2383) the roster was acquired by Zeveron before the June/July/August NA Open events. Before the August Open, Zeveron disbanded and once again took up the name Murloc Geniuses. Although one of the top 5 teams in North America, MG have not had much in the way of success as of late. More or less “backing into” the America Qualifiers as the last NA spot because the teams ahead of them had already placed; first place Tempo Storm, second place Cloud 9, and Complexity finishing 3rd.
Despite the team changes and struggles throughout 2015, MG are looking to have a strong showing and hopefully make it out of Group A.
Team Immunity (Australia)
Shy – Carry (Captain)
Robadobah – Tank
Sashin – Flex
Naeiou – Flex
Enalgon - Support
Team Immunity, unifying after their victory in the AU & NZ qualifiers (formerly Immunity White), are the champions of the AU & NZ region and are looking to represent the two Pacific Island nations in Las Vegas. While the team itself is fairly new, and the region itself is substantially weaker than the world as a whole, Team Immunity bring a fairly interesting playstyle to the Storm. Having two preferred Flex players versus the standard two carries that we see from other western teams brings an interesting element to their game. Being able to rotate roles of a Specialist/Carry on two members means Team Immunity can adapt quickly in a Best of 3 scenario.
Can the Aussies make it out of groups and shock North America?
COGnitive Gaming (North America)
Scylol – Tank
Hospital – Carry (Captain)
Iakona – Support
Glaurung – Flex
iVSlime – Carry
COGnitive Gaming (also known as COG) are no strangers to esports as an organization but are definitely new to the Heroes of the Storm scene. Having only acquired a roster in May, formerly known as “Shot and the Bullets: Reloaded”, the squad showed immediate promise finishing no worse than 3rd in their first 2 months together. Unfortunately after the MSI MGA 2015 Americas Qualifier the team has fallen off in terms of performance, finishing no better than 3rd. With the roster moving to San Jose, CA with apartments close by and a practice area in between them, the team has an easier way to build in-person communication which can be huge for any new lineup. The team’s hyper-aggressive style has been a treat to viewers while sometimes being a detriment to the team as well. Despite their shortcomings, the team is looking to be a favorite coming out of Group B due to their style and their practice regiment.
Is this the tournament that COG makes a resurgence and takes a top spot to prove they are among NA’s elite?
compLexity (North America)
Blinks – Support (Captain)
Trummel – Carry
CattlePillar – Tank
H0ns – Flex
Jaximus - Carry
compLexity Gaming. Another name that is very well known in the esports scene that jumps on the early HotS bandwagon. compLexity acquired the roster of “Barrel Boys” and saw a lot of success in the ESL weekly tournaments but failed to materialize any meaningful results in any monthly, minor, or major tournaments. After the departure of Erho to Stellar Lotus, the team took to Reddit to search for a replacement. Jaximus contacted the team for a tryout and was immediately a great fit for the squad.
With the addition of Jaximus the coL squad is looking stronger than ever. They are looking to make a big splash at this weekend’s event.
Revenant – Flex
Mirr – Flex
Trinity – Flex
Relyzer – Flex
Zeys – Support
The Southeast Asian qualifier, coming out of Singapore, is Relics. They are a relatively unknown name in the Western scene, pulled off an impressive performance in the SEA Qualifiers by not dropping a single game until the Grand Finals, taking out Philippines Champion Bibingka 2-1. The squad also has a lot of interesting play styles. According to GosuGamers, all players not named Zeys played some combination of a Carry, Specialist, Warrior, or Tank hero in their 6 tournament wins. So what does this mean? Well it means Relics are an unpredictable squad with an obvious amount of talent. Will their wild playstyle result in a spot at BlizzCon?
Furious Gaming (Argentina)
Nittt – Flex
Megalomaniac – Tank (Captain)
Kobu – Support
Malheven – Carry
DEUS – Carry
Furious Gaming have a very interesting story on how they got to the Americas Championship. They actually finished 3rd at the Copa America Championships last month, Brave Ozone took the top spot for the Latin America region. Unfortunately, Brave Ozone had visa issues and could not attend. In steps Furious Gaming, known for their Starcraft II clan, to try to grab a spot at BlizzCon.
Unlike North America teams, Furious Gaming love their specialists and will focus on hard pushing and gaining an early lead to stomp out their opponent.
For me, it’s an easy decision who is going to make it out of group stages in Group A. While Murloc Geniuses and Team Immunity are strong in their own right, I do not think they can hold a candle to Tempo Storm’s impressive Pick/Ban and Cloud 9’s team play.
Winner’s FInals: Tempo Storm vs Cloud 9
In the North America July Open Tempo Storm showed to be very strong, beating Cloud 9 2-0. Cloud 9, at the time Cloud 9 Maelstrom, was able to first pick away Zuna’s Zeratul in game 1 but unfortunately the “Double Mage” comp of Tempo Storm was too much to handle. Game 2 saw Cloud 9 ban out Zeratul and Tempo Storm ban out Jaina, but again Tempo Storm was too much to handle. I expect Tempo Storm to be the Group A first seed.
Elimination Game: Immunity vs Murloc Geniuses
Despite Immunity’s promise as a squad, MG just have too much experience under their belt to worry much about Immunity. MG moves on 2-1 to the Lower Finals.
Lower Finals: Cloud 9 vs Murloc Geniuses
The last time these two teams met in tournament play only once before back when MG was known as Zeveron and C9 as C9 Maelstrom. It was a close set in the opening round of the tournament and both teams have shown improvement since then. I give the favorable edge to Cloud 9 in this one based off of player skill alone. Cloud 9 grabs the second seed out of Group A with a 2-1 victory.
This one is a bit closer. COGnititve is an impressive team. They had a lot of time to prepare so I expect them to come out guns blazing in their opening group game versus Relics. Furious Gaming is a bit of an unknown, and for what it’s worth, shouldn’t technically be here anyways. There is also the big question mark about compLexity’s new carry in Jaximus. Will he be able to bring is League of Legends skill into Heroes or is there still a lot of learning to do?
Winner’s Finals: COGnitive vs compLexity
These teams have met twice before this tournament, the NA July Open and the NA August Open with both teams winning a game. Expect this to be one of the closest games of the group stage by far as both teams are fairly close in skill level and strategy. coL still has a new lineup at the end of the day and because of this I give COG the win in this very close series 2-1 and matching up against Cloud 9 in the bottom half of the playoff bracket.
Elimination Game: Relics vs Furious Gaming
Poor Furious Gaming. I mean, they were able to go to Las Vegas which is awesome. Unfortunately, the best finish they had was 3rd in a relatively weak region. Being that Relics is a bit of a wild card, I expect FG to bow out of the tournament in this game. Relic takes this series 2-0 and moves on to play compLexity in the Lower Finals.
Lower Finals: Relics vs compLexity
Relics has the potential to pull an upset here. Being a relatively unknown team they have the element of surprise with their line-up of mostly flex position players. Expect a closer series than the experts think. At the end of the day though, I have to pick coL winning 2-1 and facing Tempo Storm in the upper part of the playoff bracket.
Tempo Storm vs Cloud 9
Another rematch for these two teams. I mean, it’s hard to pick against consistency and these two teams have it. Tempo Storm consistently finished in first place with Cloud 9 consistently in second place. At this point, it’s almost irrelevant who to pick as a winner here as both teams get to go to BlizzCon on November 6-7th. For the sake of potentially being right and getting to brag (and potentially being wrong and sulking) I will have to go with Tempo Storm 3-1. Cloud 9 will make the first 2 games close, actually taking game 1. However, i think Tempo Storm is just the better team and that will show after their second series of this weekend.
Everything must go, it's a fact.
But it doesn't mean it's going to be easy to accept.
Have you ever just sat in a coffee shop and asked yourself, "What if I made smaller, better choices in my past?"
I don't think many people really think about that, sorry, think about those kinds of simple questions very often, or at all.
I mean come on, what if you were that teenager in High School that never did any of those drugs that everyone thought was so "cool?" .. Or what if you were that teenager that went to parties and did drugs?
Switch those two roles around, from if you didn't to you did, and if you did to you didn't.
~ Would you be any different than what you are today?
~ Would your social group be any different today from what it was, or how it is now?
What if you had your parents through out every single choice you had to make growing up? But then again, what if you didn't have that growing up?
Would you be who you are today?.. or hey, what if you were one of the many children/teenagers that didn't have parents growing up, or you did but they were never supportive in your life choices?
~ How would you be different today?
Have you ever thought about how your life could of been with making different choices than what you have through out your life?
Or how different your life could be today if you did things differently?
Do you think about how fortunate you really are?
To be able to have a roof over your head, food in your stomach, and a group of friends and family that loves you?
It boggles my mind to know in the back of my head that there are so many countries out there that are populated with children that have absolutely nothing, and are literally just skin and bones, and EVERY choice they make is a choice between life and death. Doesn't that just tug at your heart strings, to know that a child or a family somewhere far off is literally suffering and having to make some seriously tough choices, just to get by? We waste so much materials, and produce on a every day basis, every where on this universe, yet very few people ever think about how much we are taking for granted.. We appreciate very little of what we have today..
When the world has decided it has had enough of or vulgarity of life, and it just destroys itself, or we destroy it, all we will have is each other, politics, money, fame, and everything in between will no longer exist.
We will have to learn to let others help us, and vice versa because in reality, to survive it can either be, survival of the fit, or death of the weak, just like it is every day we live now, or we can take things with a grain of salt and start helping each other more.
Some day it won't just be just humans vs humans, it'll be humans vs animals, vs the universe, who do you honestly think will win that battle?
To be continued...
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I've been doing well with the LCK in Fantasy drafts so I thought I'd share my picks this week.
It's actually a tough week because upsets could easily happen with these two best of threes.
However I am going with the stats and based off previous performances the following picks I believe are going to put me in the money pool.
TOP Apple - $1136
JUNGLER Chaser - $1252
MID Crown - $1332
ADC Fury - $1412
SUPPORT IgNar - $930
FLEX Roar - $1260 SHOTCALLER
FLEX TrAce - $1209
FLEX Pilot - $1321
I avoided all players from SBENU SONICBOOM. They are trash.
So I started off my draft by picking the best to players from SG, hoping they get decent points.
After reviewing previous match ups I went through and made my picks.
JIN AIR GREEN WINGS:
These picks are based off performance from the pervious two weeks and from their first match ups against each other from earlier in the season.
Thanks and good luck if you use my picks.
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I’m taking things personally. It’s been a historic couple of weeks. Friday was a historic day. It started for me with the President’s eulogy for the Rev. Clementa Pinkney and ended with the Supreme Court’s ruling in favor of gay marriage. Yesterday, got me thinking. Actually, it got me feeling.
It’s a feeling I haven’t had in a long time. The last time I had this feeling was in 1989. I was in Orlando, Florida getting ready to graduate from Naval Nuclear Propulsion School. I was watching the Berlin wall fall. It marked, for me, the end of the Cold War. I felt optimistic. Having spent many summers in Germany visiting my relatives on my mother’s side, it was also strangely personal. It was that unique feeling of history happening to me versus history happening around me.
History doesn’t always feel personal. The tragedy of September 11th didn’t feel personal. I remember being angry and disappointed, but I didn’t feel it personally. Friday’s events, however, felt very personal.
As I mentioned earlier, it started with the president’s eulogy. Although I’m an atheist, I was moved by the president’s comments about grace. He spoke about the violent act and how it sits in a long history of bombs and arson and shots fired at churches. He spoke about how the killer imagined he would incite fear and recrimination; violence and suspicion. What the killer didn’t understand was the grace surrounding that Bible study group.
According to the Christian tradition, grace is not earned. Grace is not merited. It’s not something we deserve. From my understanding, grace is the free and benevolent favor of God as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings. The president specifically mentioned that this terrible tragedy allowed us to see where we’ve been blind. He mentioned that despite our rancor and complacency, our shortsightedness and fear of each other, we still received grace. Grace in the form of awareness that the Confederate flag is much more than just ancestral pride, but is actually a reminder of systemic oppression and racial subjugation. It’s clear that this flag will finally fall. Much like the Berlin wall fell. I felt hopeful.
Amazingly, the hope train would continue to chug along on this particular Friday. The Supreme Court’s decision to uphold gay marriage across the land was a very special kind of hopeful vindication. It was an exoneration. People were set free, free to lay claim to a historic and ancient institution: marriage.
Yeah, this is personal. From “Don’t Ask Don’t Tell” to the Christian Right’s efforts to paint gays and lesbians as pedophiles, not fit to parent and certainly not deserving of the right to marry to the bullying, insults and abuses aimed at gays and lesbians, it’s been a long road. That road has had many highs and lows.
For me, the highs have always been about the people. While in the Navy, I spent a decade in Virginia. During that time, while serving in the U.S. Navy, I was surrounded by an amazingly open, welcoming and loving gay community. It was there that I learned to become a gay man: to wear that identity with pride, to learn the history that I was never taught in school and then to discover an amazing culture and legacy. Thankfully, the lows for me were few and far between. They were there. It was always in small moments.
For those of you who know me well, it’s safe to say that I’m direct and confident. Having spent a decade being a consultant, I often need to establish credibility with executives who I really don’t know in a matter of one or two minutes. In my most recent job, that approach created a very unique situation. I’d been on the job for only a few months when I had discovered a coworker had come up with a very interesting theory. The coworker described my behavior as a “byproduct of me being gay in the military.” She had observed similar confidence in her uncle who was gay. Therefore, she concluded that all gay men who served in the military had to be overly confident and direct to make up for their insecurities about being gay.
And there it was, one of those frustrating, little moments, where another person’s ignorance, like nails on a chalkboard to my rational mind, reminded me of the perceptions that we still need to overcome. I remember coming home that night and telling the story to Jordan, who at the time was just my “domestic partner." We were not allowed to marry back in 2012. We both laughed about it. Yet, it happened. One of those small moments of awareness. Awareness that ignorance and prejudice still existed.
In 2013, the great state of California allowed Jordan and I to become married. Of course, I knew that our marriage wouldn’t be recognized everywhere. Somehow, it wasn’t important. It really wasn’t important until yesterday. Yesterday, I realize the depth of the problem with hate, bigotry and ignorance. You see, I had accepted that my marriage was only valid in California. Almost the same way many whites “accept” the Confederate flag is a symbol of ancestral pride. I had become complacent. Hard to confess that, strangely. It’s almost that I had allowed a truth to disappear.
[side note: Don't let anyone tell you that the truth can't disappear. If I believe in anything, rather than God, it is that I am part of something that goes all the way back to Antigone, and that whatever speaks the truth of our hearts can only make us stronger. Can only give us the power to counter the hate and bigotry and heal this addled world. Just remember: You are not alone.---R.I.P. Paul Monette]
Of course, the good fight is far from over. There is so much more work to do. Hate, ignorance and misinformation still exist everywhere. Hate is still taught from one generation to another. Friday’s events are actually a call to action. We all need to take these things very seriously. Each of us has the power to make a difference. By being a little more vigilant, a little more outspoken, by being, dare I say, direct and confident by standing up to those who speak out of ignorance or hate, we can make a difference. As one flag falls, I’m optimistic that another is rising in its place, but this time a flag that celebrates diversity and inclusiveness.
I for one am taking it all personally-too personally, in fact. You see, I don't really have the choice to ignore it, because it's happening on my watch.
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So I figured I should write a hopefully small blog about my time with vVv and the people within it.
I joined vVv in April of 2014 and was kicked from vVv in June of 2015 so i just passed my 1 year mark. At the time vVv was about the Community and the people it strived to create and mold into awesome gamers that you'd want on your team.
To start the story off I'll talk about my first encounter with vVv. I was introduced to Rob and Jerry through an old member named Ivan. Ivan would rave about vVv and would never shut up about how awesome and great the community was for his career for whatever the heck he wanted to be (he could never decide). One day in April Ivan and I went to one of the League's LCS games and that's where Ivan introduced me to Rob. One way or another we all end up at the vVv gaming house chatting the night away about many topics and this is where I was introduced to Jerry. Now I already heard many things about vVv from Ivan but to talk directly to the owner himself, that's a way better conversation in itself. I've never been sure if Jerry actually didn't mind me as a human but in my eyes I had some what of an approval from him. I mean the first day I met him he was trying to recruit me into vVv and talking about being on staff. So that night I Google the vVv page and started my journey as an applicant!
As an applicant of course I wanted to be an "A+ student" so i did my forum post, I was in Mumble all the time and tried to make it to events. Sooner or later i ended up getting my Vs! And not so soon after I was put on staff. I was the application manager and oh man how I loved to tell people about it events XD I'm sure I had a few eyerolls about it but I was proud! Proud to have my Vs and be apart of the process for others! Although I could never make staff meeting because of my weird schedule, I would write reports on all the applicants and talk to the other staff about it as much as possible. One day I actually was able to make an event; The glorious ADL I've always heard about but never able to attend! I was so excited since a friend of mine picked me and we won both games! But then I get pulled to a room by the ADL Lead at the time Pleague and told that I can't play in ADL anymore because I was reported for spamming laugh. Now for me, I'm a silly person some times and I like to make League a fun environment but when told that for spamming laugh I can't play anymore is quite absurd. So I blew it off, I mean I never make the event so it didn't seem to be a problem. But for Pleague that apparently was and he brought it to Sugarbear's attention right afterwards to where the three of us were in a channel talking about not two minutes later. Pleague believed that I should have a harsher punishment because I, at the time was staff, but Sugarbear said it being ban for awhile was a fine punishment and we left it at that. To me it was all just a pointless battle.
But that very weekend after the incident the staff meeting was canceled because Jerry had Sugarbear as a guessed in his home, and that Sunday November 16 i got a message saying "I just wanted to send you a message letting you know that we're going to be going through some changes in how we run vVv. As a result of those changes we won't need you on staff anymore and want you to return to being an awesome community member."
Once I saw this in my head and even out loud I said "Wait, What?! Why????" No explanation nothing to tell me if I did anything wrong or why I wasnt apart of the transition to the new staff team and even when I did ask I never got a straight answer. Here I was think I was doing a great job getting good community members into vVv and lightening the load on the other staff members at the time. Of course I was quite upset, very pissed off actually. How could some one just throw away another person so emotionlessly? It broke my heart to have to be forced out of my place and thrown aside with out even a tissue from the other party. But I continued on as a member but a bit of me was now disconnected with vVv and its unprofessional like ways made me salty towards it.
The best part of vVv is it's members old and new. God these guys are amazing people! And I really do mean that. The only great thing i honestly got out of vVv was these friendships and bonds I've created.
PAX South was coming around in January and a group of us plan to go. And we all thankfully got to go together and have a blast! We went as vVv repping gear and looking awesome and I'm so glad I was able to met up and hang out with people I talked to every day in Mumble.
But then PAX East came around in March OHHHH BOY!!! The group at PAX east was amazing as well and I loved how well some of us got along and some of the people I went with are very dear to my heart now. But it was 5 of us in a room for 4 nights and of course most of us were already comfortable with one another and we joked and drank. But we had a complication within the room, there was a snorer. Only one. And non of us minded but if you didn't have earplugs you might as well been sleeping next to a freight train. Now every night we were all drinking and every night we had to deal with snorebear and on I believe the Sataurday morning(4am) I decided to Snapchat a ten sec video to just the others in the room of the snoring. The video was pitch black and you could faintly hear the snores in the video, no name was placed just blackness and the sound. Of course when every one awoke they saw the video and it was the talk of the morning. Apparently that was not okay in Sugarbear's eyes because on the Monday morning when everyone was leaving I was threatened in front of everyone in the room. Sugarbear told me if he ever hears of me doing that to another community member he would delete me from vVv and make me disappear from the community and wouldnt be able to communicate with anyone from the community. Yeah what a heavy goodbye morning we had. So here was another tick away at vVv in my eyes and I unlatched myself from vVv for a bit because of that. How could a blatant joke made for only people within the room be so blown out of proportion? But yet again here I was joking around with some one who I considered as friend and then given an unprofessional and robotic response.
Then 3 months passed and I've been semi afk with the vVv community, mumble and forums because of the incidences.
I was just about to start coming back from this when I finally figured out why my mumble wouldn't let me log in, I thought I was ban and I was like "oh no.... it's happening." But the servers changed and I logged on to see one of my friends there. We started talking and then he told me the news about the chop list. I was on it and so i logged onto the forums once again to see the list but...you have to be a member to see it ( which personally I think is fucking stupid because if I didn't have my friend to tell me, I would still be sitting here saying "oh im still in vVv" so that shit needs to be seen for the people chopped also maybe a twitter blast about dat shit? like come on! half the community has twitter ffs.)
No explanation for why I was chopped either, not one message or note, anything to tell me what is going on. Which once again shows me how unprofessional some people are. Ex. Hey we're going to fire you from your job and not tell you so you'll still come to work until one of your co-workers go "dude didn't you hear? you got fired last week."
^ In no way is that acceptable so why is vVv doing that? Because it's a community? This is not in anyway a good reason for this behavior. We applied for this, we waited our months through the process and we donating time and money to it, so why is it so hard to tell some one a simple "Hey, I'm sorry to tell you this but we are going to have to cut you from our team for "reasons listed". Because nothing makes a better experience in ending a relationship than doing it the RIGHT WAY! Why is the vVv staff so impersonable about these things and yet screams that we are a "Community" based organization? This baffles me to even think that this is the same vVv! The same one that Ivan told me about what feels like so long ago.
Now that vVv is making changes towards Pro-gaming I think it just switched tracks all together and said hope all the passengers survive.
So here I am post vVv and yet I feel that the only thing tying me to it is the people.
I'll possibly still be around every so often just to chat with friends.
And sadly this didn't end as a shot blog as i hoped sorry ^u^;;;
Thanks for reading ^w^ and good luck gamers!
Practice #2 on the Ranked 5s team 9Line eSports Bravo, June 2nd 2015.
Practice Start: Gold V 30 lp
Game 1: Practice makes you bad
Coming into this night I was optimistic. We were coming off a great first night of practice and I was excited to get into night two to see if our success would continue. Our first game was a rough one but it was rather close until one pivotal fight around the 20 minute mark. Starting with champion select we put together a team that could deal with the kite and peel they were looking to put together. They first picked Ekko after our Hecriam which lead us to believe they were either looking to burst or kite so we decided to counter that with an Annie pick. We finished out the comp with a hypercarry and Thresh to provide peel and lockdown. It's not the best looking team on paper verses theirs but it has its strengths and we were going to try to play to our win conditions of locking down Vayne and Ekko and bursting them out of fights.
Getting into the game we decided that we had a stronger level 1 than them so we decided to invade through bot. We managed to pick off Ekko who was getting vision down and got an early lead on our Hecariam. Moving into laning phase we struggled to keep up with the poke that Vayne and Nautilus were dealing. We gave up two easy kills to Vayne while at the same time giving 2 kills to their jungle in a 2v2 on top. This swung the momentum in their favor. We managed to stall out the next 6 minutes grabbing 3 kills to their 1. At this point they managed to vision on dragon and we were unable to safely contest so we conceded it. They then proceeded to sweep our 3 outer turrets in a series of skirmishes that went either 1 for 1 or 2 for 1 in their favor. We managed to grab a tower back in the midst of it but they established a 3k gold lead by the 18 minute mark as the 2nd dragon was becoming a target. We managed to secure the 2nd dragon of the game while picking up 2 quick 2 for 1's. We rolled this momentum into two more towers and evened out the gold difference.
At this point I was calling for a group mid to push onto their T2 mid. We got our side waves pushing in our favor and grouped mid. I saw an opportunity and called for an engage which we got and we nuked their Ekko fairly quickly. Unfortunately they managed to keep their Vayne alive who tore us to shreds. The fight ended up 4 for 1 in their favor. They then turned and got baron, with which they secured 4 towers, 2nd dragon, and an inhibitor as well as securing more kills along the way. This swung the gold from about even to a 7k deficit. The game was lost at this point and they slow played it until they pressured down our nexus.
Game 2: vs The Hearts of Gold
Moving into our second game, our mid player had to go help his significant other as she is dealing with a loss in the family. We put in a sub that has worked with us before, First Time TF. In this champion select we were looking to work around his play on Azir or Twisted Fate, two of his best champions, so I decided to make a protect the carry comp. We started by picking up Nunu to provide a slow field for our carries to kite over as well as providing the blood boil buff to either Kalista or Azir to shred their team. We then rounded off the comp with 2 hard peel champions in Janna and Gnar to keep our carries safely in the back with little to no pressure on them.
Getting into game we decided that we didn't have that strong of a level one so we set up vision instead and played safe. Getting into lane it was a rather slow game to start off with. First blood didn't come until the 6th minute when we got dragon with Nunu and then moved into bot lane for a gank. Lanes continued to go even until the 12th minute mark when we set up the second dragon. We were able to grab it quickly and then turn on the converging enemy team. We caught them in their lower jungle and set up or comp perfectly. As they tried to engage on us with Sion and Wukong we put up Azir ult to knock them away. Once they had blown Sion ult and Wukong ult the only CC they had was Malzahar ult which we were able to cancel rather quickly with the CC we had. We swept them 5 for 1 getting 3 kills on to our Azir. After this fight we used our 6k gold advantage to pressure down 2 turrets and secure another dragon. At this point the enemy team either gave up or were trying to stall hardcore and put Vayne in a solo lane. She managed to push down both our bot towers at the expense of their middle inhibitor and multiple kills. We then picked up Baron and quickly ended the game after.
Game 3: vs The Origin
Going into champion select this game we were looking to set up a similar comp to the one we ran last game. We wanted to put our AD on a hyper carry and build a team that could snowball that advantage. We picked up Sejuani and Janna after their first pick Thresh. We then rounded out the team with Vayne as our hypercarry, Gnar as a hard CC peel champ, and Twisted Fate to help snowball Vayne early with level 6 teleport ganks. The win conditions were similar to the last game, keep their damage off of our Vayne and let her carry mid and late game teamfights.
In game we played our level one differently and set up deep vision. They managed to secure first blood on top after a misplay by our top laner caused him to take tower shots. Across the map in bot lane they had also applied immense pressure in the bot lane and, with a gank from Volibear, managed to secure 2 kills bot while giving one back to the counter gank from Sejuani. Gnar is also able to pick up a solo kill in the top lane rounding out the kills. At around the 6 minute mark a 4v4 happens in the bot lane when Volibear ganks again. We manage to send both Gnar and Twisted Fate bot with their teleports and go 2 for 0 in the fight putting both kills on to our Vayne. We then turn and secure dragon. The game settles down for a while after this. Ahri manages to push down mid early and continues to apply hard pressure on Twisted Fate forcing him to stay in lane or be punished by losing a lot of cs. At around the 14 minute mark the enemy team sets up a tower dive on bot tower allowing them to secure kills, tower, and dragon. We were forced to trade that for top T1 and damage on T2.
Over the next 10 minutes we manage to win multiple skirmishes across the map putting kills on our Vayne and allowing her to hit her late game spikes. We manage to secure 3 towers and second dragon. At around the 24 minute mark we have absent vision on the enemy team and on baron so I call for a rotate to ensure that they aren't doing a desperation Baron. While rotating they pick me off in a bush and move over to baron. Unfortunately for them, we are too far a head (6k gold at this point) and manage to get in to the pit with baron still around 2k HP. We secure the Baron and clean up 3 kills. We had 2 huge waves on bot and top to work with as well as a baron buff, however we miscommunicate and dive too early on top. This allowed for Ahri to kill our Twisted Fate and stall long enough for death timers to come up. We still manage to secure the top and bot inhibitor towers, however this misplay forces the game to go on 5 to 10 minutes longer than it should have. At this point we retreat and secure 3rd dragon. We then slow play and secure the 2 open inhibs, dive them under their mid inhibitor tower, acing them and ending the game.
Here is a video of the replay, unfortunately the data gets cut off at the 27 minute mark, however you only miss us setting up the tripple inhib play and the last team fight to end the game. I hope you are still able to see how we set up our lead from this video.
Night Results: 2-1
Practice End: Gold V 75 lp
Again I would say that this was another successful practice. It was unfortunate that our Mid had to step out half way through practice but it happens and I am thankful that First Time TF was able to step in at such short notice to allow us to finish out practice. I am looking forward to our next practice on Thursday!
Till then, thanks for reading and I will see you all next time!
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Back again for Day 3 of my weekly stream (10pm-1am est) tonight!
Here are the goals for this week:
10 concurrent viewers
Minimum stream of 3 hours.
In game goals are to climb to rank 26 tonight if possible.
Last week, I felt I did well engagement but I peaked at 8 concurrent viewers. I really want to see if I can break double digits!
Thanks all for the support!
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Hey everyone, I decided to write this blog about improving and how inefficient some strategies are, and to see how everyone else learns to improve.
We all learn differently, and different strategies are more effective than others. Personally, I learn by repetition. This strategy is probably the most long term strategy and can seem slow, but it works for me. The harder the goal I’m trying to achieve is, the harder I have to work.
I set goals for myself every week and try to slowly increase the difficulty every time I check one off the list. For instance this is my list for this week’s objectives:
· Counter Strike: At least 10 kills, only use AK-47.
· Heroes of the Storm: Diablo- Land stun on ult every time and have the highest Hero Damage dealt.
I set reachable goals that force myself to try a little bit harder every time I load into the match. It’s a cycle of wash-rinse-repeat for the week and I don’t always get it, but I try again until I do. My thought process is, if I break a big goal down into several different, smaller goals, I can track my progress and really see that I’m improving rather than, “I’m not in Plat yet” but instead “Hell yeah, topped the scoreboard again.”
Thank you for reading, and leave a comment on how you improve your game!
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Hello vVv Community,
Many of you in the community know me from the League of Legends ever since I became a member of vVv. However after taking a closer look into my life I realized that video gaming no longer made me happy. I was constantly angry and I became very cynical towards others in my actual life that I was actually pushing my friends and family away. So I decided to just play some non-multiplayer games to take a step back and really evaluate what was going on in my life that was causing all this inner animosity. So what I did was every week I would stop playing one multiplayer game and then record my moods/feeling for that week while absent of that game. I did this for about five weeks until it was the week were League of Legends was up. At first I thought it was going to be a rough week and even make me angrier because I was going to be absent from the game that I loved and cared about the most. However as the week progressed I started to see myself more as me instead of the angry shell that I had become. I then decided to stop playing League of another week to see if I got the same results, and I did. I would be lying to you all if I said that League hasn't changed my life. League of Legends drew me to this community that I know and love, League of Legends brought me together and solidified everlasting friendships. At one point in my life it was the medicine that I wanted and needed, but over time it slowly became the poison. Now its been a little over a month since I have even logged in to League. And my life has never been better. League will always be apart of my life in the way that it shaped me, however I cannot see myself returning to it any time soon.
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If you haven't seen Sky's video yet, you can do soand his follow up video is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCdor8xjsPg.
There are 4 major issues here:
- The intent / goal of streamers
- HOW that goal is reached
- Harassment of gamers – specifically those who are female
- Streamer diversity
Let’s break this down.
The inherent goal of streamers is to make money. I suppose it may compete with the desire to entertain and provide a good experience. When it comes down to it, streaming is a business. The more money a streamer elicits the more frequently a streamer is likely to stream. This may allow a streamer to make this a full-time job or career.
Streamers reach this goal by the entertainment value of their stream – whether that’s comedy, showmanship, personality, great plays and/or… boobs. For women we have this awesome marketable feature no one else has. Those are breasts. It’s great. However, it’s also not so great. This is something that is infinitely complex because there are so many sides.
Boobs are great! The issue lies in the intent behind the marketing. As we already defined, the goal is to make money. However, does the streamer manipulate the relationship between streamer and viewer to capitalize on this? It’s when streamers exploit the already female hungry male gamers to extract more money from them, that an issue is created. Furthermore, I think this is also a huge issue for girl gamers. Why? Because we try so hard to show we’re a gamer, whether or not we’re male, female, transgender, we’re gamers. We don’t want to be treated differently.
I do think Sky stuck his foot in his mouth a little when speaking on this subject. I really do think after reading his twitter after the video was posted, that he was focused on the intent behind the marketing. However, I believe if he had simply titled his video “Dear Streamers” without focusing directly on female streamers – it would have been more accurate. To say some males don’t exploit their streamers as well is a fallacy. I do think though, that girls are simply more noticeable or at least the marketing is more noticeable – more talked about - than other streamers.
I find it incredibly ironic actually, since we spend so much time complaining and flat out, avoiding, sexual attention. Do gamers realize how many women masquerade as men in games because we don’t want the sort of attention we normally receive? Some of us refuse to talk in any kind of voice client to avoid any attention that could cause – because a lot of times it’s either sexual or hate. Some of us refuse to even join any community aside from one which is girl-only. In fact, when we ask ourselves why any gender or identity-only groups exist; it’s because we don’t feel safe.
Which leads me to my next point: Harassment. Let’s be honest – gamers are assholes. We ALL are assholes. We play to win and god forbid if we think anyone has the potential to prevent us from getting that. We have no problem telling someone where to shove it or when. This means our filter is for the most part non-existent. Not exactly a good thing. We get used to saying whatever we want – when we want. The internet is anonymous after all, who will know?
Furthermore, since gaming has been predominantly men until relatively recently, there’s still a lot of nastiness there. As soon as someone reveals she is a girl, she is friended, showered with gifts (RPGs), and harassed. The harassment can take the form of sexual predations or just plain hate. Twitch chat especially is a cesspool of filth. Regardless if she shows skin or not, she will receive hateful comments.
What does this all mean? We need more streamer diversity as a gender! We cannot change a player’s sex drive – sex marketing will always work. We may be able to alter people’s online behavior, but I believe that will take a lot of time. It will be a gradual shift. What we can do, right now, is if someone wants to stream, do it. Do it however you desire. Persevere through the hate and keep doing what you love. Just keep in mind the long term effects of your actions.
"she" is meant to be ambiguous.
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Video games are my passion. From the first time I played my dad in Mario Kart 64 to my first Gamebattles match, walking on to mainstage at my first tournament and living in a gaming house, all of my most memorable experiences have involved video games.
When I moved to LA two years ago I was introduced to a whole new world of gaming. Tabletop games, board games, roleplaying games and the like.. Interesting. I was actually pretty resistant to trying these out at first. I can remember always wanting to play video games, the stuff that I was more familiar with and didn’t want to touch board games or RPG’s. Once I even walked out of the house before we were about to start a campaign of Numenera because it was so god damn terrifying. My roommates love them, and I always felt guilty if I didn’t play and didn’t want to be that guy. It was up until about a few months ago that I dreaded RPG’s entirely.
But why? Why was I scared or nervous to participate to begin with? Fear. Fear of not doing the right thing. Not knowing the rules. How to roleplay. How to fall into my character. d20 wut? You get the point. So, okay. I’ll give this a shot. In our latest campaign of Pathfinder (Ravenloft) we all went out and bought props/costumes. I figured that I would try to fall into my character a bit more than the last time. I thought the whole thing was going to be really painful, but it actually was pretty fun.. $120 later, lol. I felt like a kid again trying to find just the right short swords, bracers, cloak, etc.
So, a few sessions into the campaign later. I’m fading in and of what’s going on. I (and the group) realize that I’m hardly paying attention. Like, I’m there, but my mind isn’t. This becomes super frustrating for the group, so the DM turns to me and wants me to run the group. This was excruciating. I never realized how indecisive I was. Deliberating sucks. So there I was, around my closest friends, not adding or making their experience any better. I actually made it worse. Eerggh. I feel like shit after and go to bed after everyone leaves.
The following day, I have a conversation with the DM in which I realize that I wasn’t even trying. I had never even committed or given it much effort to get better. I just defaulted to neutral and disengaged. Fuck, I thought. I want to be better. There are some pretty awesome skills that I can develop through role playing. Exercising my imagination, leading, problem solving, communication and probably even more that I haven’t even realized yet.
So, that’s why I’m writing this blog: To embrace my suck. I am going to log my journey of becoming the best roleplayer that I can be. There’s a long road in front of me, but I’m determined.
Our next session is Sunday, January 4th. So far, my strategy has been focused around watching and reading about RPG campaigns and best practices. My next entry will detail the group and our progress so far. If you have any RPG resources, or general advice please send them my way via the comments or through Twitter @vVv_RobZ. Thank you for reading!
Teaser: I’m the Rogue. And our next session we will be embarking on our journey into Castle Ravenloft. Get Excite!
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Hey everyone, this is my first blog post so I apologize if it's a little rough and I promise to get better over time
So where to begin... Last night helping out SunDown and Kotazu with the ADL was an awesome experience. For a while now I've been wanting to help vVv out in someway or get involved by being more than just a community gamer. A long time ago when I was just starting out PC gaming (I was about 14-15) I got involved with a community called Quiet Storm and quickly became the "Events Coordinator". I would manage in-house tournaments, game nights, etc... After that I become an "Administrator" and I basically ran the clan while our clan leader was on medical leave. After the clan leader eventually came back the game the clan was based around was bought out by a foreign company and was no longer available to play. The clan quickly fell into shambles.
After finding a new game to play I picked up some of the old members and made a clan of my own. It was awesome for a while. We were growing rapidly, having tournaments, in-houses, our forums were always active, & it was a ton of fun. I really enjoyed being able to bring so many gamers together and being able to help normally shy gamers meet other people that shared the same passions as they did. After about 2 years I had to step down as the leader for personal reasons. It was probably one of the saddest times in my life. I lost connections with a lot of close friends over the years and I regret not keeping in touch.
Getting back on topic; Since I've gotten back into gaming with League of Legends I've felt like there is more that I can do and should be doing to again help foster those type of connections with gamers. I used to be one of those shy gamers before I realized that there were a ton of other people like me that shared the same passion for gaming but just didn't have the social skills to gain friends online to play with. I remembered this awesome community I used to lurk around in my Halo 3 days, vVv Gaming, and I decided to look them up and see if they have a League of Legends division. It turns out that they did and I started coming and getting to know everyone in the League of Legends division and I have to say it is one of the best communites that I have ever been apart of and it's more than I could have ever dreamed about back in my days of running a community.
Last night, helping out with the ADL gave me a taste of what I used to feel when helping people and I just can't get enough of it. I've always loved managing things and helping out with the spreadsheets, sorting, feedback, etc... was awesome to say the least. I want to be able to help gamers again and I think that me and vVv have a long and great future ahead of ourselves. I'm very excited to see where vVv is going in the future and I very much want to be apart of that future.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings guys I'll be using this blog much more often. This was actually really fun to write and I hope you all enjoy it. If you have any feedback please let me know.
While the times of Pathfinder Alpha seem to be going in the right direction the Goblinworks Inc company made by far the smartest decision ever.
The Cold Start,
Goblinworks went through the painstaking task to simulate the effects of Early Access. I was surprised that they moved for this since I have never heard of a company doing this before. It was by far the most enjoyable thing that they had done since during this time you could get a ton of exp and then level some skills. This not only let you try out the skill leveling system but it also let you try out the said leveled crafting skills.
Next thing that happened was the 'Read All About It!'
In this 'patch' they sent out a list of things that they wanted everyone to try and do during the Alpha. In this update they also doubled the amount of players that will be in the Alpha!
If you are like me and have been playing the Alpha. You will find out that yes, there is a sad lack of players that are in the starting zones or even doing things in the area. Most of them have already moved out and are doing things out in the wild. But when they double the amount of players this should make it easier for the new people to get integrated since they can ask questions and get answers from the others who have been playing.
The community has been very welcoming and helpful to anyone who has asked questions or even needed help with stuff. This is a great thing to see even this early in the game. If this keeps on going we will be sure to have one of the best communities ever.
Good job Goblinworks, 10/10 so far. Keep it up!
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So for my Technical writing class I had to write a little 3 paragraph article about my past, present, and hopes for the future. I decided to share it with you guys so you can get a little bit of an insight into some of the key points of my life and what I think about. Cheers.
"The hardest part of high school was coming to terms with being gay. While struggling to figure out who I was, I immersed myself in music, band specifically. It was my life’s passion, it made me a lot of friends, and it was the inspiration for my first tattoo. After I graduated high school, I came out as gay to my friends, who weren’t shocked at all, and moved in with my real dad. I went to community college while figuring out what I wanted to do with my life, and once I realized I wanted to do Crime Scene Investigation, I had my sights set on UNT. I had a large falling out with a bunch of my close friends because of small things, and it pushed me to move far away from my hometown of El Paso. Once everything was set in stone and I received my acceptance letter, I took my car and my belongings and headed out to start one of the biggest chapters of my life. Saying goodbye to my family, especially my dad, was one of the most heart-wrenching things I’ve done to this day.
Now that I’ve been living in Denton for almost two years, I find myself often worrying about my finances and my future. I always feel like I never have money and no matter how much I work, I lose even more money because of all my monthly bills. I always get homesick and wonder if moving so far away was really a good choice, even if UNT has an extraordinary criminal justice program. My friends I met through online gaming have kept me going, and even though they live all over the United States, they give me great advice and keep me sane when I feel like I’m going to crumble. Being a part of an online gaming organization has also boosted my confidence and has helped me become more comfortable with myself. I know that strangers will still judge me because of my personality, but I’ve learned that they don’t matter, and as long as I’m comfortable, who cares? Because I have learned this, I can open up to complete strangers more easily and have since made many new friends during my short time in Denton. Thanks to my family, gaming organization, and friends, I can see my future in the distance, and I hope that I can make something out of myself and make my family even more proud of me.
Senior year is nearing, and internships are starting to pop up. I can see myself walking the stage and grabbing my diploma, knowing I already have a secure job in crime scene investigation. I know everything I need to know to be successful, and I feel ready to conquer the world! I will have a nice apartment for one, drive a fancy car, and have the most stylish wardrobe. I don’t know what city I’ll work in, but I honestly don’t really care. Sometime in the future, before I grow old, I will visit Europe. I’ve always wanted to go. I also want to attend a gaming convention with all my online friends. Even though the future is super unpredictable, I will make the best of it. "
Hi guys its Trivium! Long time no talk? Anyways, we had an outbreak within Agent eSports, which spread onto Twitter. It infuriated me and I immediately though of vVv and The Five Pillars. For those who don't know I am an ex member of vVv, and I still love this organization! Many don't know, Jerry is a huge inspiration and one of my most favorite people in the world! I spoke to him a few times before, but when we met at MLG Columbus back in November, I was awe-stricken by the amount of intelligence one man can have, and motivated by his wording. Honestly, he's one of those people that can tell you more about yourself than you knew about yourself before! I'm sure everyone else who ever met him can agree with that as well!
Well anyway, here is the article! If you enjoyed it please retweet this tweet it would be very much appreciated! #BelievVve!
@Agent_Trivium on professionalism in @AgenteSports, eSports, and in General.
I expect everyone in @AgenteSports to maintain a higher level of professionalism, weather you are planning on going pro or not. If were giving you the chance, the least you can do is show we don't just pick up anybody. If you were able to look at our DM's on the Agent twitter and see how many people would love to have your opportunities, maybe you all would stop taking things for granted.
For those who don't know I was a player and staff member for an organization known as Vision Valor Victory, or vVv. When you apply and earn an interview to become part of the organization, you are expected to know and be able to explain the "Five Pillars of vVv Gaming" which I will link for everyone at the end of this article. These were written out by the owner himself and one of my personal mentors, vVv Lord Jerith. These pillars were established for two purposes: one as a guide to give every single person wanting to be involved in the a concrete post explaining what is expected of them as a member of vVv: and two, help vVv maintain the prestigious image it has managed to upkeep over 7 years, and earning itself over 120 top 5 placements in 20 different titles.
Is there a correlation to maturity over social media and respect for the teams each player represents? I'd say so.
It doesn't matter if you are a youth AM wanna be AM team, or a T8 team, act mature. If you think the players of Evil Genius, Complexity, Optic, Team Kaliber, or even Annex are where they are today by complaining about their team mates on social media, or down talking their own organization where the public can see or hear it? I don't think so.
Of course everyone messes up and says something they don't mean, or a harmless joke is taken the wrong way. But when it turns into a 14-15 tweet battle back and fourth, that is UNACCEPTABLE. I don't care if you have 40 followers and half of them are smurf accounts you made to make yourself look better (which thats a whole other story), that is still 20 people that get a poor taste in their mouth of you, as a representative of an organization, therefore making the organization, your team mates, other players, the staff, the designers, and the organization as a whole look bad.
Of course I used a small example and that may or may not have gotten the point across. Lets move on a larger scale now.
Your an AM team with a combined total of 1200 followers (we will say 500 per player and 200 on the team/org Twitter), you drop one player and announce you have an open slot on social media. Everything between you and the dropped player is worked out behind closed doors, everyone looks good.
On the other hand, if you say something along the lines of, "@'insert name here' is dropped from our team LF1" and nothing was resolved prior, or the dropped player wasn't informed before the Tweet went out, thats a major problem. Especially when names get thrown back and forth at one another, people cry and carry on, etc. Now that looks bad in front of a lot more people. Lets say somewhere along the line something gets 4-5 retweets from randoms with 200 followers a piece. Thats an additional 600 that see your immaturity, now your at an 1800 person reach. Thats how a lot of teams get a bad rep.
Even outside of eSports this little lesson is very, if not more, applicable. One day every single person reading this will represent something, weather its a small business, clothing brand, musical group, or even just there self. Being able to show the correct level of maturity, based on the situation, is key in anything you do, and problem solving is the most important skill in both the workplace, and at home.
Why not practice on a small scale? Learn how to interact on a day to day basis. Most importantly, hold yourself to the highest standards. Who knows, one day you could be interviewing for the position of a lifetime and how you compose yourself could determine your fate of that position.
One more thought before I end this post, I want to leave everyone something to think about and its a quote from Lord Jerith himself:
"It's not about what an organization can do for you, but what can you do for the organization".
For those of you not understanding that quote, I can tell you right now you will need a lot of work, especially if you want to be in the gaming and eSports industry.
This quote simply means , if you do good work for somebody (an eSports organization in this case), it will get recognized. If you are someone who puts 110% of their effort into something, passion, and maintain a positive presence in the [eSports] community, the organization will grow, and because of your involvement, YOU will grow.
In conclusion, just problem solve behind closed doors, and if you do get in an argument in public on social media, there are things called "Direct Messages". Send them there, leave them there. I want nothing but the best for the people we at Agent eSports pick up as players, but I also expect them to give us their best. If I see poor representation, I will take note and let you know in a PRIVATE and CONFIDENTIAL message. If problems persist, actions will be taken. On the other hand, I will do my best to reward the positives as well.
Thank you for reading this and I sincerely hope that this has opened some peoples eyes.
As promised here is a link to the 5 Pillars of vVv. Everyone should read this!
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Picture Posted is from about 4 years ago.
I figured it was time to put to words one of the most important decisions that I have ever made in my life. I'll start from the beginning. From a pretty young age, I've battled with severe depression. I never had the self esteem to go out and make friends, or to make myself known. Quite frankly it's this fact that made me turn to a life of gaming, but I digress. Spending my time in doors, and doing nothing but gaming and eating, it's no surprise that I quickly became overweight, and concealed myself away from the world even more.
Sure, this led to me improving my gaming skills on a massive scale, to the point where I normally pick up games quite quickly, but this was no way to live my life. I thought, maybe a change of scenery would be something that could help me. I moved nearly 300 miles from my home town in Ohio, to Chicago, to attend college. During that time, I did manage to make a few friends, but even then it wasn't enough. Being on my own, no one to help me control my overeating, I was to the point where I was eating sometimes up to 8 McDonald's sandwiches for a single meal, then hours later I would be eating again.
At the time, I failed to notice the problem, I was blind to all that I was doing to myself. I hadn't seen a scale, or a doctor for years by the time I had graduated from college, and moved back home. By this time, the overeating was in full effect. Taco Bell, Burger King, Wendy's, etc... If they had a cheap menu, I was ordering from it, and ordering a lot. I remember once spending nearly $40 on one single meal at Taco Bell, and eating it all as if I was never going to eat again.
Finally a few years later, I was hanging out with some friends, and noticed, that even walking I was getting too winded to keep up. I couldn't do nearly anything that they wanted, and I was doing nothing but dragging them down. I couldn't take it. I finally decided to see the damage for what it was, and went to the doctor to be weighed in. The news was less than stellar. I weighed in at an unsightly 553 lbs. Even at 6'10, that put me nearly 270 lbs overweight. I could have died from the sheer shock, I was in such denial. I had to make a change, so I immediately got myself a gym membership.
That was 18 months ago, a time in my life that I'd rather forget ever happened. From that point I've made it down to 380 pounds as of my most recent weigh-in, and I plan on making it down to 300, to be at a proper weight for my height. I've still got the depression, I've still got the fear of being social, but I'm using all of the willpower I can muster up to make a change for myself, and that's really all I can do.
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Hi Everyone, my name is Bojan (pronounced Boyan) and I would like to tell you about the time I have spent in vVv Gaming. I have found out about vVv in Guild Wars 2. It was roughly around February of 2013 and I was looking for a guild to join after I have quit the game for couple of months. When I came back I chose not to go back to guild I was a part of (HOPE) because in my absence they have grown very big and I prefer smaller tight knot guilds over large armies because then I get to know people and make good friends.
I was recruited in vVv Gaming guild by Lamorak Ex Deo who at the time had the rank Leader. He turned out to be the temporary leader while Damien was absent. Around that time there were roughly 6 to 10 people who would log on in the guild daily and that was on a good day. During the next few days I got to know everyone (all 10 of them!) and realized that they were a group of people I would like to continue playing with and enjoy the game. In that resolve I offered to help them expand and become active again and this is how it all started.This is roughly the turnout we had from the guild on our guild events at that time, we had to ask for help from other guilds to get anything done.
Over the next couple of months I spent a lot of time recruiting and helping the guild grow. I started running various events throughout the week and I did my best to still have fun with the game. I remember doing weekly Dungeon runs and Guild Missions at that time and I ran my own event that I called Bagzli's Games. The events slowly kicked off, we were low on numbers first but as we recruited people got more interested in the guild and wanted to stick around more. My custom event became very popular due to randomness and creativity that the event provided and this made my time spent organizing it and farming the gold for prizes well worth it.
Here is a screenshot of us playing the what I called the Liar's Game. Basically the rules were I would ask a simple question, are the apples red. People would get 10 minutes to decide on their answer and then they would whisper it to me. In the end group that had less votes would move on to round 2 and the larger group would be eliminated. This would repeat until there is 1 winner left. The reason behind 10 minutes was so that people can strategies and figure out a way to guarantee themselves a spot in the next round.
Time went by and we grew. We became very active and we started getting involved with the community. Myself and Lamorak both became applicants and at that time I learned what vVv Gaming really is. Up to that point, All vVv was to me was just another guild I joined and helped out in. Soon enough drama came knocking. One of the main officers in the guild and the current Warlord of the guild quit and would not say why. Around the same time Lamorak had to leave for what was suppose to be 2 weeks but turned out a month. At this point in time we had a guild event happening every night of the week, and three of us were the people who ran them. I ended up running all 7 events for the whole month in hopes that once lamorak is back we can establish new officers who would help out. He came back a month later only to tell me he is quitting as well. I discovered later that part of the reason of them quitting is because they were not very immersed in vVv Gaming and they were too afraid that LordJerith or DoomHammer would decide to log on one day and ruin it all for them. They didn't understand that both LordJerith and DoomHammer only wanted to help them run an active guild.
With them leaving, they made a fairly big scene of it and they picked off about 80% of the active members of the guild. Hurray drama. At this point I felt devastated that all those months of hard work have just gone to waste and I didn't want to go on. I got promoted to the leader but we were at the point almost as bad as when I first joined. Few days later I was suppose to meet DoomHammer for my pre-interview into vVv Gaming. I took those few days to think and decided this was not worth it. I decided I'm dropping my application, I am quitting Guild Wars 2 and playing another game.
I got these drilled into me by SugarBear when I asked him for his endorsement. I have to say it was very uncomfortable 60 minutes... Boy did I never forget them nor what they stood for...
I showed up for the pre-interview out of respect for the organization and to tell him that I was done. Jordan dragged me to the interview channel in mumble and we started talking. He asked how guild wars 2 was doing and I told him of the recent drama and told him how this is really frustrating. The conversation that happened next changed my decision. I remember listening to him talk and explaining things to me about the guild and what I could do and how to do them. He gave me very solid advice, but he also did something more. He made me respect him, but not for the kind of a person he was, for his ability to talk to a person and inspire them to take action. At this point I still did not tell him I'm quitting, the conversation didn't get to that point yet, but when it did I thought to myself: do I really want to leave this behind and never get a chance to learn from this guy ever again?
I chose to stay, I chose to take his advice on things in Guild Wars 2 and act on them. And so the journey continued. I started recruiting even harder than before, I appointed few officers to help me out. I organized a guild meeting that put an end to the drama that was going on and I pointed this guild in a new and better direction. I actually still remember writing a speech I wanted to make to everyone to try and inspire them to stick with me and follow me. I ended up reading none of that because a written speech just doesn't have the same effect than when you go and tell it from the heart as the words come on their own.
Time went by again and we started talking about organizing a pvp Tournament in Guild Wars 2. We ended up picking up a Guild Wars 2 PvP Team and I was to work with them to make the tournament happen. As they were to be participating, I was the person who organized everything to keep things fer to other teams, but they helped a lot by promoting it and putting me in touch with the key people to make the tournament a success.
As all of this was happening, little did I know that my sole reason for being in vVv Gaming was about to get crushed. One night I got dragged into the staff channel by LordJerith and there were a bunch of people there. He said, Bagzli I just wanted to tell you that this is DoomHammers last week of being the president of vVv Gaming. He got a job at riot and he will be stepping down as the president due to not having enough time to run the community as he is now. My response was: " Well that sucks". So basically the guy who I wanted to learn from and pretty much the biggest reason I have stayed was leaving to be replaced by some guy I only heard of "RobZGod".
I'll admit, I was a little angry. I had no idea who this RobZGod was not what he was like. I never met him up to that point and I was having huge doubts about a guy who was the current vice president but I never really saw around the community much. Couple days later both DoomHammer and RobZGod found me in mumble and wanted to talk about the tournament, where I was at with it and if they can help. Finally I meet this mysterious guy called Rob. I learned that Rob has been really busy working at Activision and that is why I never saw him around much. I also learned he gets excited about competitive play way too easily (a good thing). So lets get back to the tournament!
So time went by, the guild grew and we held our first Guild Wars 2 tournament which I ended up calling Kings of the Mists. We managed to get shoutcasters from MLG to shoutcast our tournament and we ended up being sponsored by ArenaNet. The sponsorship came in at last minute, but never the less it happened! Without the sponsorship the prize for the tournament was going to be 500 gold for the winning team. During the organizing phase, I organized a gold for gold donation drive towards the tournament. For every gold guild donated, I would throw in a gold myself. We ended up raising 500 gold which was enough to get some key teams interested in participating. Most of the teams that participated did not do it for the money, they did it to help the Guild Wars 2 e-sports scene grow; and once we had the few key teams signed up, well lets say the remaining 10 slots got filled very fast. (Actually had an overflow in case a team doesn't show up, roughly about 22 teams in total signed up and 16 was what we organized it for).
The tournament was organized and executed really well. There were few minor hiccups but everything ran as smoothly as we could of hoped for. We had close to 1000 viewers at our peak (I think 972 was the actual number) and I believe close to 2000 unique visitors for the duration of the tournament. Basically we had more viewers watching our tournament than all the guild wars 2 streamers combined on any given day, and that was quite the accomplishment! I got to learn a lot from organizing this tournament, I don't think I can explain in words well enough the challenges I faced and in which ways I have overcome them. I had plenty of support and guidance from the executive staff and that made this learning experience even better.
Couple months went by and guild was still going strong. We started having discussions about the second tournament, but this time around we wanted to get support from steelseries. So we presented our case to them, showed them the results from our first attempt and they jumped right on board with wanting to help us by providing prizes this time! I was in contact with community manager from ArenaNet and he also did everything he could to make our next tournament a success. They even wrote an article about our tournament and couple other community ran tournaments!
Second tournament was a success but not as successful, our team placed higher this time, but there was less interest. We did not get as many views as last time and some of the better teams have fallen apart. On the up side we managed to get european, and asian teams interested enough to stay up late all night so they can be part of the tournament!
All in all, I had the chance to organize 2 large tournaments. Well, as large as they get in Guild Wars 2. I had the chance to learn how to manage my resources, how to motivate teams to sign up, how to interact with potential sponsors and how to get them on board to sponsor us. I had the chance to partake on a smaller scale of business side of e-sports and that is something I am truly glad got to do.
As far as the guild goes, we kept going strong, when the pvp scene started dying we found other ways to entertain ourselves and that is why vVv Gaming is a place to be in, because we keep going. That is all from me for now, I'll try to write another blog about my experience as the MMO Division Manager and Website Developer of vVv Gaming.
Thanks for reading and I hope some of you get interested in joining staff because you get to do some really cool stuff that most people don't even know about. Most importantly you get to learn skills you can take well beyond gaming.
After making the decision to start taking my life more seriously, I started thinking about my living conditions. Right now, I'm living with 4 other people in a two bedroom apartment. There are two people in each room, and I sleep in the living room because I sleep like a rock. I'm almost certain I could be sleeping on concrete with a gunfight going on and still sleep like a baby. We have all 5 of our computer set-ups in the living room because most of us have different sleeping schedules and it makes it to where people can still be on their computers and let others sleep in peace. It makes for a fun enviroment but comes with quite a few downsides.
On more than one occasion, we've gotten on each other nerves with either the volume being too loud or laughter and talking too loud to hear what you're trying to listen to. I have a hard time focusing on things as it is, but it becomes almost impossible for me to do something about it with no place to get away from it all. If I ever want to start cracking down and getting stuff done, I need my own space.
Luckily enough for me, a coworker of mine has a room open for rent at his place. It would be about $80 more than what I'm paying now in rent but would come with so many added benefits. My own room, a washer/dryer, and air conditioning(Thank god). I would also be only a 5 minute walk away from my current job instead of the 30 minute drive I make now. So I decided to go for it and should be moved in by the end of the week. But this is has been sort of a bittersweet decision.
I've lived with my 4 other roommates for 2 and a half years now and have grown extremely close with them. I consider one of them to be my best friend. He let me move in rent free, with no job and paid for my food for 3 months while I looked for a job. If it weren't for him I'd probably still be living with my parents. I wouldn't even have my current job without him. Its just been alot of fun playing games, watching anime, and just goofing off with these guys, but I think this is for the better. It couldn't last forever.
Despite all that I'm looking forward to the change. Life can be bittersweet but it goes on nonetheless.
Gold version Naxx cards have been revealed to be available to players the other day. It was stated in a recent blue post that by defeating the bosses in Heroic Mode we would then be able to craft the golden versions of the cards. You can see the blue post below for specific clarification.
Hey guys – there is a bit of confusion here that I wanted to help clear up.
First, let’s start off by quoting something I mentioned yesterday about golden Naxxramas card acquisition:
So, crafting golden cards was always a part of the equation during internal testing when it came to Heroic Mode. However, you were not able to craft golden versions of a card until you defeated the Heroic Mode version of that boss. Getting a golden card as a confirmed drop from a Heroic Naxxramas boss was never a part of the equation – they have always been craftable, but the ability to acquire and craft them used to be through defeating the Heroic Mode version of that boss as opposed to just getting the non-golden version of the card through Normal mode in order to craft the golden version.
This didn’t feel like a good reward for defeating a Heroic Mode boss in Naxxramas, so we took out the part where you had the defeat the boss on Heroic first to craft the card. In this manner, it made acquiring the golden version of Naxxramas cards more accessible to everyone.
This was not explicitly clear that crafting golden Naxxramas cards has always been a part of the equation in my initial post, hence the confusion that has manifested. For this I apologize – I hope this explanation helps clear up what may appear to be contradictory statements, but was in fact simply just omitted information in the initial post, where assumptions could easily be made.
Another change that has come up is that of how deathrattle will trigger. The new change will set it so that the order in which deathrattle triggers on minions that die simultaneously is first played first triggered. This is going to have a fairly large impact on the game as it will require a bit more precision when playing cards. This change will have an even larger effect due to the increase in deathrattle cards coming out with the Curse of Naxxramas expansion. Below is a twitter exchange to confirm the upcoming changes.
Finally, we have the released costs of the wings for Curse of Naxxramas pack. If you are planning on using real money your best bet would be to buy all the non free wings for $20. If however, you wish to simply buy them with gold you better start saving. It has come out to 2800 gold required to unlock all the remaining wings. The best way to do that would be to start doing your quests frequently and resetting any quests that is below 100 for a chance to get one worth 100.
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I have never in my life ever blog before ever.....
With that said I really want to share with you guys my world, my thoughts what goes through my head, Ill start at the very fucking beginning and I write this as if Im talking to you in person.
I have a brother and sister, and they are a major part of this story too and really I dont even like to open up like this at all! So why I do this I have no idea but heres goes nothing..
So growing up for me was pretty typical, we are a mid class family in a mid class neighborhood. When my brother and sister were around my parents were cool, but they are older and went off to college my parents changed they started fighting alot!! The fights were bad sometimes but never called the cops just tried my best to calm them down, this went on from when I was 8 to when i was 11-12. My dad decided to leave my house at about when I was 9, and he didnt want to but I understood he had to the fights were insane, he was consistently getting hurt by items thrown at him, my dad never ever laid a hand on my mom, I dont know how he didnt sometimes but I give him credit to this day for holding back. When he left my mom got worse started seeing a doctor that gave here xanax and a whole bunch of other shit that made her fucking weird man. She did calm down finally and the fights would be on and off for years, I think the worst it got for me is when my mom stabbed my dads hand to the counter and the weird thing was he didnt call the cops he didnt even tell the truth, we went to the hospital had surgery and got him not a word was mention of this after not even to my brother or sister we kind of just kept it amongst us.
During this whole time my grandmother and uncle were always talking to me and started to feel bad I honestly just wanted the fighting to stop and go back to being normal, but I noticed that everyone in my family felt bad for me, so I took advantage of it and started getting literally everything I ever wanted. So I myself started not paying attention til one day I heard a huge bang I went upstairs to see my mom on the floor and her pills every where.....she tried killing herself and a few times after that till i called my sister one day and told her to come home and witness this and she did and it was crazy for the day and the next day we called the cops i didnt want to at all but she did so we did.
So now my mom is off in the hospital my dad is doing his thing, When my dad left I stood with him on tuesdays and everyother weekend and fuck were those weekends fun. I found out that my dad owned bars, clubs and restaurants throughout brooklyn, ny. So I convinced him to let me help out and he did and me being the owner son people loved me, girls went crazy over me, im the owners lil son, and the memories I had with my dad his friends were just amazing at that age i shouldnt be in the places but I am. I didnt drink but I had fun watching them and smoking weed and cigarettes, then i started working at the front door with the bouncer now that made it even more fun, the things people did to get into some of my dads place was funny, and the bouncer later on in life i found out he liked i guess underage boys so of course he had me kissing girls left and right and doing all sorts of shit with them and like watching but why would i care im messing with girls I in my head never thought in my right mind would be kissing etc etc etc.
Then one night the cops came in ID everyone now the problem arose im not suppose to be in there working nor obviously as a customer so after alot of back and forth I was allowed to bar back or be the ice boy from the basement, So i started bringing my sega gensis and playstation to his bars when I worked and i played for hours!!! Then one day I did a stock list for my dad and noticed he had no idea what he actually had in inventory, once i realized that a light went off in my head that I can sell bottles and cases for whatever I wanted there FREE!! lol, so I started doing that and within a week had 2500 cash and was amazed at the type of money at the time, I felt powerful like I can do whatever I wanted, so I did, I bought something else flipped that and now had 6000 and so then it began, here I am the young age i was and had what I felt at the time was everything. So I did what my dad taught me best always make money..
During all this my mom was in and out of hospitals, my family is still buying me things because they feel bad, my sister is still home with me, my dad lives else where, my brother is becoming a high paying surgeon and we are moving along, til the day my mom and sister search my room and bang they seen what I feared would happen for a while the found my stash and my stashes werent small at that point, they confronted me I said it was someone else paid a friend to come take the heat and find a new hiding place....so now my parents are watching me so I decided can I invite my friends to chiill and sleep over and play video games, remember we didnt have online so to play like we do now we had to have a group over and alot of stupid networking knowledge that my friends father did lol, i feel alseep early and these lil bastards robbed my house and my families jewelry, ok steal my stuff fine, i got u, steal my families stuff and now its war, so i robbed there houses back all of them in one night! I wait about a month i think not sure maybe more and I grab one another of my friends that is over 18 and we started pawning the jewelry, in all i ended up with 9k on the last pawn shop we get arrrested and a whole world of shit opens up.
So in result I ended up at 12-13 yrs old getting sent to spofford juv correctional for a month then, my lawyer tells me he had an idea start blaming drugs and they will recommend drug rehab so I did, in the mist of my court case my grandmother randomly accuses me of stealing here jewelry, guys I didnt mention this yet but my grandmother was my best friend my whole life I would never do anything at all to hurt her ever so when she accuses me I broke down and thought maybe I did when I was fucked up one night but I never got that fucked up I always had to walk home and the walk sucked fucked up so I basically said that, the cops took it as a confession and off I went to daytop drug rehab and I did good I wasnt as bad as these kids I made more money then actually intake of the drug which was only weed anyway so these kids were on some other shit. I learned alot though being there it made me smarter both in good and bad ways.
Then a call came one day while I was at the poughkeepsie house, that my grandmother found her jewelry she forgot she moved it to the safety deposit box, and bang within hours i was released and on my way home, for my first dish of pasta I had in months and fuck was it good!!
But the good turned ugly quick when I was looking for something I hid before I left GONE!!!! My money and stash was gone what the fuck was I going to do, my sister at this time now lived in brooklyn so I went there and asked her, and she told my mom had been stealing from me the whole time which i honestly didnt care but then she stole my stash and would consistently yell at me and flush it down the toilet, so lets put this in perspective, here I am making alot of money to do whatever with, I mean i was buying things my family drooled over and I got them stuff to so no one bitched, but here she is accepting my gifts, taking money, then finding my stash yelling at me, and flushing it down the toilet meanwhile everyone in my house smokes weed, does that make sense? NO!
So I flip out and confront everyone and got everyone on the same page, started doing it again til I met this girl and she was hot in my eyes so I kept on going at here trying to get her to chill and we finally did and slowly I won her over and she became my gf and all I wanted to do was impress her, so I did, I even stopped doing what i was doing and started working on the NYSE floor, got fired from there, and got a job as a retail stock broker right at the beginning of the tech bubble, the ride that was, truely was amazing, Ill never forget its May 15th pay day our biggest checks ever, i get mine, im sweating I know it has to be huge, I open it, 350K omfg Im 19 yrs old and just for handed a 350k check, I run home to my mom which is literally blocks away and show her she starts crying cause in her eyes i did it, well i did and i went nuts, we did everything we wanted, by the end of the summer we blew all the money, my whole office was broke, I ended up with at least the house I grew up in some of the other kids just blew it and ended up with nothing but stories!
The tech bubble ended, my gf at the time hates me because i became a big dick because i thought who i was, and everything started to crumble, the business we once had was reduced to nothing pennies to the dollar alot cashed out when we did, so we literally were back to square one, we couldnt even pay the rent, so we moved the office and for 18 months we NO check, I couldnt even get home some nights and slept in the office, my gf at the time i have no idea what she was doing but i was in my own little hell.
Right around Christmas time one of my friend got a xbox 360 and he invited me over I wasnt working no income at all so I kind of just lingered around looking for a job as a stock broker, I went to his house and played idk what but I thought it was cool, so for Christmas 2006 i asked for a xbox 360 and Gears of War and Xmas day got it and played and enjoyed but still looked for a job then I get a call its my old my boss he asks if I need work I do, couple of weeks later im working again we are flowing with leads, he is helping me with money and giving me a weekly paycheck so I buy rainbow six vegas now i remember the old RS games with that fucking map on PC I hated that fucking map!! Also I was horrible at PC i always tried and just could never seem to get it, WHOMP WHOMP! I played the campaign and was like ok cool fun, gfx r fucking amazing, then my friend calls me and says let play MP at first im like no i know ill get my ass handed to me but he convinces me cause there is a room full of my friends, so i join and OMFG it was fun as shit!!
I couldnt stop playing I didnt show up to work for days before my boss came over and I showed him and he was like why dont u look for tournaments to play in, when I was younger like IDK 10 maybe I walked to blockbuster video to rent a game and came out with the mortal kombat arcade because of a local tournament blockbuster was holding, so I did and also went back to work, I found GB and MLG and loved it could stop reading about esports i was amazed how i missed this and didnt see it, I show my boss and he see's the same thing i see a growing sport and industry even though a very small sub industry. I write a couple of forum post as a F/A and next thing you know im in a gamebattles match and FML i sucked badly had no idea what I was doing, and i became back up of the back up which in my eyes was like the water boy, but i noticed alot of teams had coaches, I helped coach and coached my roller hockey team when on the TOURS circuit and I enjoyed it more then playing. I remember the teams name they ECM - East Coast Mafia, so i asked them they liked the idea, I figured why not just sponsor the team so theres no issues, so I did got the shirts, got the plane tickets got the room the team pass, I was soooo excited i couldnt wait, we were scrimming I was learning alot the weekend of the first mlg tournament for RSV half the team shows up and Im just flawed by the fact they didnt show up so now i have to find 2 kids to play so i did, and i told everyone that do there best because I know that this team isnt going to last but do your best and who knows you might end up on a really better team.
I coach my ass off, help corridinate plays, get the kids communicating and just tried to stand out as best and as respectfully as possible, I met a few people but nothing crazy I met thought Ninja and Ninjette from Defiance they did really good the first circuit meet so I pitched them to coach them and they said yes after a few weeks I was really impressed so I got my and my dad to sponsor defiance with some pretty cool shirts lol the 2nd meet of the circuit i think we placed top 20 and i felt it was decent enough to go ahead and start writing ot gaming communities and companies etc etc. In the mist of the emails I wrote to vVv gaming and if I remember correctly LJ wrote back and was the nicest response but also made complete sense to me, defience really didnt like the idea but went with it anyway because LJ accepted our app as RSV team, we made one roster change within that and the 3rd meet of the circuit we crapped out, LJ got it out of one of the guys that he was in love etc etc etc and LJ just killed him I did to over some dominos pizza of course, we all bonded and honestly i had a really good time, when we got back defiance split and everyone left vVv except me, I thought why do I have to leave I like it here i found people similiar to myself. So i decided to stick around but coach other RSV teams, the next meet I coached External Exsistence and the were 3rd overall at the time, we even got the whole trip paid for, I show up and snoopy and the other kid r piss drunk and i remember talking to triggerman and me and him decided to fuck it lets see what happens we will do our best and go from there, we did we got like top 20, me and triggerman did our best when we were done we got them even more drunk and told them we are going to stay on the team but look for opportunity else where.
I got home within a day Im in a room with dark zone, triggerman, problemz and jwho and to me this was it, all these kids were top players on different teams and I was the coach that alot of other coaches tried to duplicate and YES mR.X was a player at the time figured I add that cause seeing him on EG i was happy but destroyed me when I seen it, much love but still! I watch these kids and its fucking amazing what they are doing helping set up strats or helping counter and these kids are hitting everything i knew it right at that moment we got this completely. We were destroying team after team after team in scrims just non stop the feeling was just like knew this was the team we go to meet 6 of mlg pro circuit and we get 2nd i noticed as we were playing they were pre firing everyone on of our spots and knew our routes and and couter routes and strats overall, they memorized them, so to counter act that we didnt scrim one pro circuit team for the last meet its the championship fuck that we arent risking anything i never thought months ago Id be here, I was with a last place team and went with it, I never gave up and now we r here this is it, Ill never forget the speeches i made leading to that weekend and before we left i felt like a fucking general i was ready for war i didnt care about anything i was fucking ready.
So were they....
We are in the room parents included and I just couldnt hold back they are all looking at there shirts for the tournament I take them and got white tee shirts and a marker, and start to say why do we need shirts, why do we need to show even sign that we are a 2nd place team! Did we come here for a fashion show or to play game and win fucking money, months ago did we set out for cool shirts and headphones or did we come to win money! Whats the difference between this shirt and this tee shirt when I write New Era on it, they all agreed nothing, we didnt have sponsors we were our own sponsors,
These shirts are irrevelant they make us feel good like we r more then what we are but what we are is a 2nd place team with first place talent, I went to a hockey tournament with some of the worse jerseys and equipment we could find non of us had matching jerseys every team there had all these matching jersey andhockey pants we didnt, and guess what WE WON! Mainly because teams thought we were a joke what they didnt notice was 2 brothers were ice hockey jr usa team members and 2 TOURS roller hockey legends kids but they went by our appearance, when I said that its like it clicked, this was our time not these stupid shirts and from that we won, right before we went on main stage i remember sitting everyone and just saying u know what to do theres nothing more to say except we can win if we focus play like we do everyday just like in baseball when a pitcher is pitching a big game the coach always says its just you and the catcher and I used the same concept different situation here, raised my voice and yelled its our time no one else fuck all these kids we didnt come here for them we didnt play here for this asshole and i pointed at a random kid, and i screamed it i didnt give a fuck we are playing for the championship I seen it in there faces i seen it in these parents faces i seen it in other coaches other players faces i wasnt fucking around neither were they, i remember phobias coach coming up to me and saying hey dont make fun of anything lets keep it clean i laughed said ok and them min we started i went right at them, fuck this kid was he serious do you know what this meant to me and us fuck you, and I didnt stop i did what i was trained to do by my players by the league and I did everything i was allowed i even took respectable low blows at parents just cause i know it stirred emotion up. We won 2 maps if i stand correct and we were down to the last map ill never forget the huddle we took and i just said win this map we are done we did it, all these months all the traveling all the money spent all the stress and the bullshit comes down to this map, you do this we are done, see those camera they are on us, we shine today fellas after this map we go home champions!
1st round it was conquest i cant think of the map but i know jwho, and triggerman hold down this map problemz and darkzone were hti or miss depending on there moods and so forth, round 1 we won going into round 2 all we had to do was hold the conquest 2 of them for or even 3 not fully sure but we had to hold them for 1:27 that was all, the rounds starts we start breaking out the spawn im hopping around like a bunny to lettuce we got 1 point so do they, the push for B is real the kills are coming in our favor we have B all we have to do now is lock down there spawn, im watching the screens to see this form its all going green 49 seconds into that 1:27 we have they locked down im fucking screaming jumping behind the seats lockdown lockdown keep them lockdown, im screaming the seconds we get to 15 seconds and i just right in the ears hetween each head 15 we are done we are champion, i turn to triggerman and since him mom was out there i straight up told him that lady hugging her bag wants this more then u get this fucking done bang 5 seconds i start counting we fucking won they go to drop there controllers i fucking go crazy to finish the match everyone starts laughing triggers mom jumped up so quick her seat flug back, the round ended we went fucking nuts at least i did lol hugging everyone, everyone taking pictures hugging there families then it hit me, Not one person from my family my gf at tt he time no one cared it was like this didnt even exist.
That actually bothered me for a while, I won a baseball state championship when i was younger no one was there my neighbor was there, my hockey tournaments no one was there and now this no one was there wtf, lol but fuck them I did it they all laughed but I did, when I got home, what I thought no one watched no cared and boom they all watched they all cared not at home though with those friend but within here within vVv, and i thought that was interesting all my real friends knew, my mom and my dad knew they didnt care I won, there thing was are you done traveling, its like are you fucking kidding me do I speak french!!
So know we won im excited im trying to get my gf at the time back into our relationship we never broke up just grew apart because of the time consuming of the game and my commitment ot the team and work. A few weeks go by my grandmother goes to the hospital and dies, fucking destroyed me my grandmother had no idea what i was doing and i was going to shower and never got to, remember she was my best friend so i couldnt wait cause she didnt know. The next day was like i knew it was coming just was hoping not at this time.
Its 4am i jut get home from doing IDK what but I turn my computer on to check aol which was not popular at all anymore but i still had friend that used it so i check up on it once and while and a random IM popped up a old friend that wants to talk to me, so I say ok but he wants to come now so know my curiosity gets to me and I tell him to come, he basically tells me my gf is cheating on me and i have been paying for there dates and a vacation which i thought it was funny because when I went to a family dinner her cousin gf said that not her BF but i tried not to think of it. Well I confronted it was true she blamed me playing games and other istuff and bang she was gone so nows its feb 2008 my grandmother dead, my gf is now my xgf with a new bf, i felt like lost everything to playing video games, so i said fuck it i did what i set to do im done. COmpletely disappeared, but always checking in with vVv just to say hello, and to keep tabs.
Fast foward a little but to say 2009 i find a new gf things are back in order, income is plentiful i try to get back into games specifically BO 1 and 2, I found it funny thought that people talk about that here and I never had anyone to play with so i just stopped with the fear of possibly losing my gf over it, keep in mind im fucking unhappy as ever cause im not me, im turning into someone she wants but not who i am. So i guess to ease the pain and urge of wanting to play i get stupid games to play with her i honestly do everything to keep the relationship nothing seems to work but we are still cool. let fast foward even more to recently when i came back, I started play LoL WoW anything you guys played I played because lets face it some of you guys i have been talking to since 2007 and on so some of you became real friends to me. I came back again and still was bitching how my Vs got taken away when I clearly stated ill be back again. SO LJ gave me honorary status which i loved to be honest it was cool not the color but the name lol. Well when I came back I was under the assumption I was having a kid and was extremely excited as I dug through things and just to see I found out that word around is that baby might not be mine after some more digging its true not mine and she had a miscarriage so I give of just leave it alone and forget what I heard and try to work things out, then I get this random message in my PMs on here, if you guys know me I dont answer many PMs, the first few I didnt answer then I finally decided to and when I did, it probably has turned into one of the best friendships I ever had.
It struck me as odd, here I am becoming someone i dont want to be, and doing I can to keep here around which lets face it, for me its not that hard, and here comes someone that is just chill, wants to play and just have company around, during this time, my xgf leaves my house because i got my best friend now laid by a chick i knew, so i get him laid and my gf leaves, wtf is that lol also guess what els im a gamer, keep in mind though i played more games when she first met me, it didnt matter cause we would go out and spend a wad of cash, figures! so when she leaves i really start open up to my new friend and that friend does the same, and the friendship grew to wear i dont what i would if i didnt have them to take to and play games with I dont have to worry about the time i spend playing i can do what i truely enjoy and struggle to beat my friend everytime, but its fun!! I get so intrigue by this person and their story I have to see this in person to see if this is real, i watch catfish i know how to tell LOL, so fuck it i go, and its all true everything, so now i take a step back and think about it, my friend is honest completely with me, even when i pull there card, they convince me enough the proof is there, im blown away this isnt real, but it is! Every situation i ask, anything i say has the exact response i like, wtf how is this possibly that i found someone thats like me with a better shot! I had to put my friend into my hood to see how this goes.
You guys know my dogs barks at everything, my friend i prep about my dog for days "dont worry, her bark is bigger then her bite" my friend walks in the dog looks and goes back to sleep, my dog started to showing old traits of what she used to do with my xgf, wait a min im thinking wtf is that, in my head im thinking bark mothrfucker dont do that, why do that your just mind fucking me. This is what im thinking in my head as im watching my dog interact with my friend, and it fucked me up because we are friend right?
and now here am i today, writing to you...........